So yesterday was difficult just as it was certainly always going to be. Kassy got along fine both alone and with her brother Andrew and their family
in Seattle. I assume Terri did the same in Colorado and so I wasn't even needed,
but I am sure I was missed.
Being missed is far better thing than being needed.
When it comes to love are we not in a far better position to love another if
need doesn’t have a part in the play? This Christmas marks a moment in time for
Terri, Kassy and I as the small family unit we once were, one that was necessary and
in the end the healthiest separation I personally have ever witnessed, let
alone participated in.
Today I feel the power of that moment and as I write
this I am moved to flowing tears, not ones of sadness, but tears of
gratefulness to these two wonderful people who I shared much with and
were able to say respectful goodbye to a life of positivity and not one wrought with the
pain of dysfunction. Ok, we had our moments (many), but that is not how I view
our history from this pinpoint in the map.
As I make this decision to leave San Ignacio and move
on to the sea, I do so knowing I passed the test of fear and doubt so that I can give love and respect to a life once lived and a new
one unfolding before me with no regrets. I do of course possess an ache in my heart for missing
those I love but knowing they are doing well…even without my magnificent micromanagement
skills!
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