The day before I found out I was denied SSI I had a
wonderful day, one filled with magic and assurances that I am indeed on my
path. I spent the morning walking, taking pictures and talking to trees, then
in the afternoon had a pedi with the lovely Jana and have the brightest red on
me toes, and I love it! I saw 5 blue herons fishing, two eagles playing midair,
one peregrine soaring, and a kingfisher on a power line. Anyone
who knows me well knows I see animals as omens, as messengers and through them
I KNEW that my life was finally beginning. So though I did have a mini
breakdown yesterday morning…I bounced back due to the outstanding support of T (T
stands for the crazy magical young man with the plan to get me to Belize!) and
Terri. Oh and of course the natural world that speaks to me every time I bother
to get out and listen.
What makes this significant is that these cabins were
renovated and operated for several years by my mother’s ex-partner Ina. She was
my reluctant co-parent from 1st grade till the day she died, and she
died at the house that is part of the property of Shakti Cove. I have never
stayed there and have only driven on the property to take a look around and say
hi to the new cove keepers. They never know who I am as I did not keep close
contact with Ina and didn’t even go to her memorial because I just could not
face her death at the time. So I can think of no better place to commune with
the past so I can proceed with my future.
As I write this “random” on my iTunes decided to be all
timely and shit and play Stairway to Heaven, one of those songs I take to be an
omen of good/bad tidings when I hear it on the radio. Today I swing the
pendulum on the side of good tidings.